I am now in Lexington, damn what a wild ride its been to get here. Bill and I are calling it quits for good this time, no more bullshit. I am glad too cause my drinking had gotton way outta control; and I am for once learning more about myself then I ever have in my life. I am alone but I feel relieved of the need to always be there to do and cater to him. Now I can take care of myself and help me and take of the problems I have. War is hard kids...and when you are married to a man whos family puts him on a petalstool and thinks of him as some military hero for killing over 20 people and saving his squad. And your just the crazy bitch who couldnt keep her legs closed and and didnt even know she was pregnaut to boot; then get sent right back in to combat a few days later and eventually loeses her mind and has to get sent home. You know you probably drink your self to death too because I fucking tried my ass off out there. And I still couldnt fucking make there mind games go in one ear and out the other.
Fuck it.
I havent had a drink now in almost a month.
And I am doing good...